Confused

montse
2 min readDec 26, 2020

As you can see from the title I am Confused. I don't mean I´m confused about some dumb stuff like the difference between baking soda and baking powder. Although that is a tricky topic and I am still confused. Anyways, the main point is I´m confused. You may be asking, ¨What are you confused about?¨, well thanks for asking. I am confused about many things something I really wanted to talk about is my gender. I don't know what I am. People might say I'm non-binary, but I feel like thatś not it but you never really know.

I am confused. This happens with many people. So, if you're reading this right now and are thinking the same thing, you are not alone. I was born a female as that's what the doctor said. But, sometimes I feel masculine. But, I don't always feel that way sometimes I feel feminine. Sometimes I don't feel either way and just feel like a non existing gender that hasn't been discovered yet. Its weird and confusing. For example, one day I feel like I want to wear a dress and makeup generally feel girly. But, then the next day I want to make my breast size smaller and make them less visible. I want to wear ¨manly¨ clothes as people like to call it, which I don't like how it's used but I guess that's that.

I was raised with stereotypes of women do this and play with this and men do this and play with this. It makes me mad because if a little boy wants to play with a doll let him play with the doll. Me being born as a female is difficult, I am expected to wear dresses and play with barbies. Or clean and serve men. Give the men what they want and not what i feel comfortable with.

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